Tim's never been entirely comfortable with affection. He's grown used to rejecting it, hand holding and cuddling and all that stuff, because that's when the hook-ups and the one night stands get too personal and too messy and all those things he tries so hard to avoid.
He tried to avoid them with Matt, too, but clearly failed. He didn't stand a chance. Not against a justice-driven, good-looking lawyer with a smile that rivals the fucking sun.
It's different, with Matt. He likes holding Matt's hand, likes twining their fingers together, as he does now. His thumb brushes along the length of Matt's index finger, and he can feel bruised, split knuckles beneath his fingertips. He's never been entirely comfortable discussing this sort of thing either, but here he is, gazing at their joined hands as he talks.
"Not this time. I couldn't get the shot." He takes another drink of bourbon, a long one. "And instead of lettin' the response team go in, I tried to find a better angle. He got away. The team went in to find him and some of 'em didn't come back out."
He's not being specific, but he figures Matt probably knows anyway. He can put two and two together.
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Date: 2016-01-16 06:58 am (UTC)He tried to avoid them with Matt, too, but clearly failed. He didn't stand a chance. Not against a justice-driven, good-looking lawyer with a smile that rivals the fucking sun.
It's different, with Matt. He likes holding Matt's hand, likes twining their fingers together, as he does now. His thumb brushes along the length of Matt's index finger, and he can feel bruised, split knuckles beneath his fingertips. He's never been entirely comfortable discussing this sort of thing either, but here he is, gazing at their joined hands as he talks.
"Not this time. I couldn't get the shot." He takes another drink of bourbon, a long one. "And instead of lettin' the response team go in, I tried to find a better angle. He got away. The team went in to find him and some of 'em didn't come back out."
He's not being specific, but he figures Matt probably knows anyway. He can put two and two together.